I slid down this memoir quickly, from the first word, in a state of unconscious absorption, unaware of time, not putting it down. Now that I am done; now that I have landed on the ground, I am left in a daze, sitting stunned and still, listening to the buzz of flies, trying to make sense of a painful world I have just passed through. And, more or less, wanting to start at the top and read it all over again.